Orgasms beget orgasms. I take a lot of Zoloft — 200 mg, if that sort of thing interests you.Two hundred milligrams of Zoloft is the highest dose of Zoloft that doctors will give a person — even a person like me in eating disorder recovery and with OCD so ferocious I will vacuum myself out of a […]
Taking antidepressants is like removing a fog you never realized you lived beneath. I see myself and the world clearer; I am more myself on antidepressants, not less. Two weeks ago, I was sitting in the kitchen at work when the topic of wellness came up. It didn’t take long for the conversation to shift […]
You don’t have to just lay there and take it. When I was 15, I attempted to hang myself in my room. It didn’t work. Over the following seven years, I experienced some of the most incredible mood swings of my life. I would feel so happy, then, before anyone could pick it, I’d slump […]
I am a lot of things; some people might think I am too many things. I am also worth loving. I am hard to love. Well, I’m easy to love. I’m kind and generous. I’m intelligent and funny. I’m an environmentalist and humanitarian. I am really good at baking cakes. I am those things. But […]
It took me a while to understand that those times when I need to go back on medication are not indicative of failure. I’m watching a British murder mystery and I’m crying. I love British murder mysteries—they’re pretty much the only TV shows I watch—but the entire time I’ve been watching this show on this day, I’ve […]
In terms of traumatic impact, the ECT feels like a violence that was inflicted upon me, not a procedure done to help me. Five years ago, I was in the throes of the third and hopefully last severe depressive episode of my life. I have always taken my medication as directed and regularly attended various […]
I had the guts to help myself and I’m finding a way through this, to the place where I don’t lose my shit when my kids lose their shoes. In life, I try to strike a balance between transparency and over-sharing. Motherhood is a blessing and a joy but it’s messy and scary, too. Life is […]
And if I were to get pregnant, I’d do it again. You’ve seen the ads on Facebook. “If you used Zoloft during pregnancy and your baby was born with a birth defect, you may be entitled to compensation.” Pfizer is accused of hocking the drug to pregnant women despite known risks, including “holes in the heart, […]
This medication may not work. But to denounce the very idea of it is to deny women’s basic nature as sexual beings. This week I have been barraged by well-meaning people who are telling the world just how much they believe that the new medication for women’s primary sexual dysfunction, hypoactive sexual desire disorder (HSDD), […]
I wish that I had spoken to my therapist about my fears of medication and pregnancy and seen a psychiatrist specializing in my condition sooner. I wish that I hadn’t put myself in the path of such terrible, useless suffering. I wanted to get pregnant so I decided to wean off my antidepressant. I didn’t […]
Female sexuality is often defined in terms of what men want. Sprout Pharmaceuticals is on the warpath. The pill company keeps applying, now for the third time, to authorize sales of a drug called flibanserin, which has been nicknamed “female Viagra,” but the FDA just keeps turning it down. Sprout would like you to believe it’s […]
